Tuesday, October 26, 2010

The Thing

do you know what the worst part is? it's the fact that life will go on the same tomorrow and there's nothing you can do to change it. the decision is made and you will wake up knowing he'll be gone. you'll wake up and realize that he won't be a phone call away. no one will hear you. and the sad thing is, no one will care. they'll brush it off like dust on an old piano. the sad thing is, i'm too wrapped up in my life to care either. the sad thing is, is the fact that i don't care. it's worse that i don't care how you will feel. but when my time comes...when he leaves, that's when i'll realize your pain. i'll realize all the suffering you went through and then i'll pity myself and feel sad that i wasn't there for you and no one was there for me. that's the sad thing. the sad thing is, is the fact that tomorrow won't matter. the only thing that will be important is to hold yourself so tightly that you don't fall apart. you don't want to lose yourself in the madness. stay inside your own head and focus your thoughts there. the deed has been done and there's nothing you can do about it. nothing to stop it. so, the only person you can rely on from now on...is yourself. That's The Sad Thing.