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Um so. sitting at my computer like a normal day. sort of. I'm having a party. false. not. i ought to do some homework but laziness. has caught up with me. but i don't really want to write about my laziness with school work. Scary things happen, stress happens, relationships happen, you happen to me and it hits me like a bullet. fast strong and unwavering. i write about you, then it stops. nothing happens. nothing happens fast and then it's gone. like the wind. gone. Lighter note!! i'm going to go into my room and shut the world out and do my work. being finished with something makes you happy. like running. running makes you happy. smiling releases stress. or that's what i hear. or i should paint my sisters room. that would be fun. like that one time when you and me.. ;)

:T

um so. i'm here. chilling out. i'm irked. not fully irked but reasonably bugged that if you crossed my path, i would chew you out. i didn't get to do my adventure for the week. i guess i'll have to save it for another week. i think you can't trust anyone in life. you're just going to get hurt. you know what? i'm so tired of being miserable. i want to open up and be me.. but it's so hard when you're the oldest child. i have to usually keep things to myself but i can't. i don't usually explode but i really need to. i'm going to burst. i want me. i'm ready. i wish i didn't care what other people thought of me but i do. it's human instinct. well.. i really hope no one reads this. but if you are reading here's some fair warning: i might explode soon. please forgive me when i do.

it's thursday night and i'm stuck at home.

so the title says it all. i should be out and doing something that teenagers do right? that's what i thought. my parents are good people and such. yay for the temple. you know what bugs me? dramatic teenagers. i promise i'm not high maintenance. get me with a good book and ill be silent for ours on end. i actually enjoy silence. i don't mind at all if i don't talk to a single person all day. but i don't want to stay home when i could be doing something more exciting. now i'm the oldest in my family. my older brother is off to college and now i have to be the responsible one. oh wait, haven't i always been the responsible one? (sigh)(deeply) i know i don't live a glamorous life that i envision myself. goodness. i'm so grateful for everybody in my high school. they are the people that make the best stories. all the stories i write, the people are real. i base my stories off of real people. i'm all about living in the moment..if i don't get in trouble. i'm not sure if that makes sense. oh well. it's thursday night and i'm stuck at home.

New Year

ok so it's the new year which means new resolutions. yay. :I i tried resolutions once upon a time. then i realized that i probably shouldn't make a new years resolution to kiss all the guys in my school. bad idea. the end of the semester is coming up which means it's finals week. this week can either make or break all the work you've done during the whole semester. tests, getting sick, studying, sicknesses, writing an some more getting sick. yay it's a party. it's ramble on day p.s. i have a phone and it's name is marty. there should be a guy i know named marty. i would dig him. oh boys! they're quite fascinating to watch. macho man to macho man. getting the swankiest girl. it's a party! all the good girls get passed up and then they're too scared to talk to any guy then they have low self esteem issues and then they stop caring then the world EXPLODES! next.. have i mentioned i hate running.. sometimes. eh. cleaning time.

That life..

That life we once thought existed. That vague memory of things to come. Looking out the window and wondering.. What would it have been like if.. The sky goes gray, black, and blue in cycles that are as predictable as the moonrise. That life that calls for me out in the ocean. That life of running around busily. Not taking in the night air. That life that all of us dream to have but never attain. That life that I'm living. My life is but a moment here, blowing away like the wind. Where it'll take me.. you'll have to see..

Everything

So today is Christmas. One of the best days of the year. Not only for the presents but the fun time you get to share with everyone and anyone. It's interesting how people in general change around this time of year. I don't know. Happy endings are cool. Fairytale endings are pretty awesome too. Goodness. Thoughts keep flowing in and I don't have enough time or room to write it all. Just stop and think. That's it.

People

Recently I had an experience with some friends and their views on other people. These are some of the few things I got out of it.
If there's one thing everybody is trying to find in his world, it's acceptance. Acceptance comes in a variety of forms. One could be in relationships between another person, another could be a group of friends or friends in general. Relationships with guys can be tricky. I try to stay away from those because you never know what a guy is thinking so everything is a guessing game. If you like a girl and you get the idea that they like you, tell her! Hold her hand or give her a peck on the cheek.. never mind. That would be rushing into things. Just tell her and if she feels the same way, she should tell you, lets hope. OOOH, but girls don't ever tell a guy you like them unless they tell you in person. They can be quite the tricksters. Guys, if a girl likes you, don't act all weird around them because they can totally tell. Now onto the group of friends relationships. If you're a new student, find a group of friends quickly otherwise it will take a while to fit in. You need to adjust to the group but keep your individuality. Make yourself stand out of the group in a good way so that you can be whoever you want. Don't talk about other friends behind their backs unless the whole group is doing it, and then you still don't! You will be liked by all if you're an all around good person. And if you're moving from a different location completely, don't talk about past friends. People don't care about it. Really, they don't. ALERT TO BORING PEOPLE: People in general don't like boring people. Even boring people don't like boring people. I have a friend that is so boring that nobody likes her. Well lets just say that nobody knows her. She's so undeceive. Just make up your mind. "What do you want to do? I dunno." GAH! Guys don't like you when you do that. Ok but this is nearing the end of my experiences. Well it is the end. Just contemplate these thoughts and just self check yourself every once and a while.

some more.

Modeling

tis true. i model for this company called shabby apple.

intro

ok. so this is the place to write down everything right? sure. as you can already probably tell i don't like capitalizing things. first it takes too long and second, its' too formal for the relationship i want to have with my readers. lets start off with an introduction. my name is sara and i run. that's a nice start right? i would say this is your turn but.. you can't. more about me. sometimes i like writing and sometimes i like reading. many days i like history. almost a fanatic but not. no biggie. i'm thinking this blog should be sort of this story. lets start off with a protagonist. austin bradford. bradford being the last name of this guy (albino to some) that i like. do we like the idea that austin was born in 1902 in austrialia to a rich family? yes, yes we do. so i'm starting my story and no interupting.