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um so. i'm here. chilling out. i'm irked. not fully irked but reasonably bugged that if you crossed my path, i would chew you out. i didn't get to do my adventure for the week. i guess i'll have to save it for another week. i think you can't trust anyone in life. you're just going to get hurt. you know what? i'm so tired of being miserable. i want to open up and be me.. but it's so hard when you're the oldest child. i have to usually keep things to myself but i can't. i don't usually explode but i really need to. i'm going to burst. i want me. i'm ready. i wish i didn't care what other people thought of me but i do. it's human instinct. well.. i really hope no one reads this. but if you are reading here's some fair warning: i might explode soon. please forgive me when i do.

it's thursday night and i'm stuck at home.

so the title says it all. i should be out and doing something that teenagers do right? that's what i thought. my parents are good people and such. yay for the temple. you know what bugs me? dramatic teenagers. i promise i'm not high maintenance. get me with a good book and ill be silent for ours on end. i actually enjoy silence. i don't mind at all if i don't talk to a single person all day. but i don't want to stay home when i could be doing something more exciting. now i'm the oldest in my family. my older brother is off to college and now i have to be the responsible one. oh wait, haven't i always been the responsible one? (sigh)(deeply) i know i don't live a glamorous life that i envision myself. goodness. i'm so grateful for everybody in my high school. they are the people that make the best stories. all the stories i write, the people are real. i base my stories off of real people. i'm all about living in the moment..if i don't get in trouble. i'm not sure if that makes sense. oh well. it's thursday night and i'm stuck at home.

New Year

ok so it's the new year which means new resolutions. yay. :I i tried resolutions once upon a time. then i realized that i probably shouldn't make a new years resolution to kiss all the guys in my school. bad idea. the end of the semester is coming up which means it's finals week. this week can either make or break all the work you've done during the whole semester. tests, getting sick, studying, sicknesses, writing an some more getting sick. yay it's a party. it's ramble on day p.s. i have a phone and it's name is marty. there should be a guy i know named marty. i would dig him. oh boys! they're quite fascinating to watch. macho man to macho man. getting the swankiest girl. it's a party! all the good girls get passed up and then they're too scared to talk to any guy then they have low self esteem issues and then they stop caring then the world EXPLODES! next.. have i mentioned i hate running.. sometimes. eh. cleaning time.