the bird

so remember how i missed the last couple of weeks to write. yea. that was me. remember how i have nothing to write about today? oh wait! that's every time my fingers touch the keyboard. lets see what's new with me life. i bought my wedding dress off of ebay for only $150. i know! be impressed... that's if it actually works out. that would be so baller. most brides wouldn't even dream of spending so little on their dresses. i'm so cool. i'll let you guys know how that turns out. i really hope it goes well for my sake. i don't really have $900 for a wedding dress. a dress to wear one day. i was pretty adamant about buying my wedding dress cause i felt it was especially special. yea. i said it like that. but i wanted the dress to sit in my closet for ages gathering dust that possibly my daughters could use.. haha that's the dream. or i think. that's why i also got a unique engagement ring. so maybe i could pass it on for future use. i merely want to be remembered in the future! that's all i want. but don't we all want to be remembered? eh eh! or not. but i want to do something meaningful or worthwhile. have you ever noticed that the people with money always get to help people? probably cause they have the money to do it. mostly i'm talking about the girls my age that go off to africa or some other who knows where place to built schools or help orphan children. am i on a soap box? i'm not even having fun writing this. i need to get the oil changed in the car. that doesn't sound like too much fun cause the mechanic always tries to push some other service at you. no thanks mr. mechanic guy. i would like to let my car die and slow and hardly painful death. lolz? i think a bird just fell down my chimney.
-s.p. 

boat

thank goodness for the break i have in between classes. i always thoroughly enjoy it when i can make tuna fish sammiches with saul. yes we did make tuna fish today. we discussed how we were always "that kid" that opened the tuna fish bag and it reeked terribly bad. then we were made fun of but we kept on eating that sammich cause it was worse not to. twas so tasty that you had to eat it even though you were being teased. ah. the good old days. sometimes i wish i was back in those days. nostalgia.. i watched the move dear john a little bit ago. i never actually realized how much that situation could apply to my life. i want to get into specifics but i know that people actually eavesdrop on my thoughts. no worries. i guess that's what i'm here for. for people to be entertained...? i'm like most people and have issues with goodbye. i hated saying goodbye to reed. it killed me. i had never felt so alone. i can't describe it. do i owe it to him to wait? or do i owe it to myself to continue on with my life cause i know i'm happy and it's not just happy, it's bliss. that's what's tugging on me in the back of my mind. (remember that you chose to read this) i know that saul is the person i want to spend forever with. oh gol. the tug. hey! you can't win them all. even though i am. i'm well aware that i'm the worst person and probably going to hell. see ya there, right? lets write about something happier. trampolines. i have one. that's my secret place where i feel alone and safe. where's your safe place? i'm feeling oddly interactive with whomever is reading this right now. i want to giggle from this comment but a mere smirk is coming out. i appreciate the smirk. it says so much. seriously. smirk in the mirror right now and then be surprised but everything you could be saying by that one smirk. that's all i got.

bigot

this will be short and sweet and to the point because i have math class in 40 mins. give or take. ha! lets get real, there is not point to any of these posts. it's like a bad seinfeld episode. or a really good one. i wish that you could all hear the tone of voice i talk in. but there are a couple of things that i wanted to get out of my head. music on blogs. at first i had a really strong opinion of it. that it ought not to be there. you shouldn't make someone listen to your music while they're reading your blog in their own head. the reader can make some pretty accurate judgements about you by the music you listen to. wars have been started over music... (tio dan, back me up here) but then i went onto this blog that had some song about jeans and i actually kinda liked it. so now i'm up in the air about it. but more on the negative side. lol my mom just called me and told me that the doctor could feel my 6 year old sisters ovaries. isn't it weird that a 6 year old has ovaries. i guess she is a girl. lol (again) emails! nope not dr. horrible. but but but tis march. which is one of my favourite months. seriously. there is no joking in my voice. i'm one of those people that call march, mustache march. those people. and saul bought me stylish mustaches that i can wear throughout the month to various events, school, weddings, church.. maybe not church. but you get the point. why are mustaches so fascinating? probably cause it's hair growing out of a face! but tis different than eyebrow hair. i can't help but smile at the thought of it. so i might post pictures if i get enough time.. i never have time. or do i. but once again, the beginning of the month brings something just as great. a new vogue magazine!! yes. one of those girls. it's like the bible to everything classy but it's only accurate for that month then they come out with new things each month. so creative! one day i'll be that creative. or not. but that's all that i want to write for now. maybe more stuff will come to me later. like in a dream, like lehi. even better! the book of sara. blasphemy? never. bigot(e) out.